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Thoughts Before Deployment
One spouse explores the emotions.

by Anna Paz, Milspouse.com

The days are passing by so fast...how I wish I could slow down time. Departure time is just around the corner, it’s not even two weeks we have left to spend together. There are so many things left that need to be done--requirements to finish, matters that divide his time with us and work. But I cannot do anything. I just have to face the stress of deployment. I always look at the brighter side this can bring to our relationship--maybe his love for me will grow stronger. Of course I will still be here praying for him, always reminding him that no matter what, my support will never fade--just like my love for him.

I just read the email about his itinerary...he's leaving soon. It has not even been a month since I was informed of his deployment. I haven't gotten over that fact yet. But I have to keep this fear of loneliness to myself--we have two children. I want them to see that mommy is strong. I don't want them to see my fear of not being able to get through this.

It's different this time...I don’t know why, it's just harder. My kids are more aware. How will I keep them busy when their father is not around for the summertime? Last night, I cried. I was putting my youngest to sleep. When we told him daddy is leaving soon, his response was "No daddy, stay here..." The weight of the world is on me. Every night I whisper my prayers to God, every night I pray for strength, especially on the day that we drive my husband to the airport.

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Mrs. Jones	5/21/2008 9:47:50 AM
Reading this was like listening to my own thoughts. My husband will be deploying in two days. While I was reading your thoughts, the ters began to stream from my eyes. I have some of the same questions that I am still searching for the answers to. I just have to believe that God will get me through just as he has done all of the other times. It always amazes me because each time for me never gets easier. It seems as if as the time pass our love grows which makes each deployment harder. I will say that with time I have matured so I find better ways to deal with the pain that I feel the moment he leaves. It's like a part of me is gone and when he returns I am complete again. I wish you and your family well.
Dianna	5/21/2008 9:50:32 AM
My husband and I are going through our first deployment. I have less than 2 months of time left with him and it is so true how fast the time flies. This story hits very close to home. I have three children, one which is being deployed with my husband. I also pray for strength to support my family through this deployment. Thank-you for sharing your story.
Catherine	5/21/2008 11:16:35 AM
My husband and I are going through our frist deploment.He leaves the end of July.We have 2 small childern and I feel that time is flying buy.I don't want him to go but I also know that I can not stop it either, that's what hurts.How am I going to be strong for my kids and myslef.I'm scared and know how you feel even though I have a longer time with my husband it seems to be not enough time together. I wish you and your family the best .
sykotik kittie	5/21/2008 4:37:55 PM
My husband is currently on deployment, this is our first. The first week was the hardest. I dropped him off at work as usual and did not go back to see the ship leave. This deployment is 7+ months and in my mind there was no finality to his leaving. During the first week I would start crying at the drop of a hat, but I got myself into a routine and I am doing great. Two months have gone by and I look forward to daily emails and a phone call every few weeks. Before the deployment, I became very clinging but never really did go through the usual pre-deployment emotion cycle. I do not have children, so that has made it easier. I figure why let myself get all worked up over something I cannot change? I started planning my husband's return party as soon as I dropped him off that morning. I miss him very much, but he will be coming home soon. Being a Navy wife is the hardest job in the Navy, but I have a post to man and things to keep flowing smoothly. It's that mentality that keeps me going strong.
SubWife719	5/21/2008 7:50:50 PM
I agree with Amanda-being a Navy Wife is the hardest job in the Navy. My husband and I met over the phone just this passed August, and never met in person 'til the end of November. I lived in Pennsylvania, he lived in Connecticut. The day we met (in person) I knew he was the one. We married in December, and haven't spent a day apart since then. It is especially hard going through this first deployment, being that we still know so little about each other. I, like you Anna, have to be strong. I am not looking forward to the day when my husband and I will spend six+ months apart. I will keep myself busy, with things like finding a job, making new friends, and even walking around the mall. This is all new to me. Why does he have to go? Why can't we spend one last week together? So many questions fill my head, and yet, most of them I cannot put in words...I may not know exactly how you feel yet, but I know I am pretty close.
Mrs. Blankenship	5/25/2008 11:35:53 AM
My fiance's deployment didn't hit me until i was listening the radio this morning, and a line in the song read "All the soldiers in the airport and all the lonely wives". My fiance and I are facing his first deployment in two months, and IF he returns in time, it will only be a week before the wedding. God will give you the strength to overcome ANYTHING the enemy can throw at you. Don't forget that. And as far as your children? Do stay stong for them, but it is ok to let them see your pain. They are feeling it too. My son is only 18 month and does not understand, but he cries for him every morning. I have to comfort him and tell him "Daddy is not here, but he loves you." We are in a long distance relationship until the wedding. (Georgia and Baltimore) You are a military wife, but still just a wife. Let the pride you have for your husbands career help be your strength. Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you HOPE and a future. God Bless

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